Thursday, June 3, 2010
I had been feeling low after The Boy ended things with me 2 weeks ago. Rejection is never easy. I wondered what is wrong with me. Why can't I make a relationship work? I beat myself up over the things that I did. I shouldn't have said this. I shouldn't have done that. What really kills me is the silence. One day this person just drops out of your life, not another word to be said.
I miss him.
But as the silence continues, I am growing angry. Mostly at myself. I'm a very laid back person. Very low maintenance. I don't ask for much in anyone. I wondered how the women who are much more demanding get all the guys. And then a lightbulb went off in my head. That's exactly what my problem is. I don't ask anything of anyone. I don't expect anything in return. I assumed that since I didn't want a relationship I couldn't ask for much.
I realize that, regardless, I should've expected to be treated well.