Tuesday, May 18, 2010

down in the dumps

The Boy and I are not seeing each other anymore. Actually it was his decision. I received the news via email last night. Email.

I knew it was coming but I had hoped that it wouldn't. I had been frustrated with his lack of effort and he felt I wanted too much. I knew from the beginning he wasn't ready for something serious but neither was I. What does serious even mean? I was enjoying the time we spent together but I felt I was missing all the fun parts of dating, the part that comes with being pursued. I got to the point where I wondered, what is wrong with me? Why am I with a guy who says, "I like you but I can't give you anything." Why was I so accepting of that? Don't I deserve someone who thinks, "Wow, I've got a great girl. I'm gonna do what I can to make her happy."

I believe I do. So why am I feeling so sad?


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