twisted heart

After meeting the boy a little over a month ago no one else has really compared to him. I've been walking around with a silly little smile and missing him the moment I walk out his door. But TA was still calling me and I thought I wouldn't really know if I was over him until I saw him. I met him out for drinks a few weeks ago and found out my answer. Compared to the boy...well, he just didn't. He doesn't listen to anything I say and did the same thing that always bothered me, he walks in front of me instead of beside me, taking my hand. I had declared to myself, and maybe 2 friends, that I was done with him. But recently he called and asked me to dinner. In the two years that we've been seeing each other he's never asked me to dinner. I was curious and I went.

Dinner was strange but mostly because it was not something we do. He did all the right things, he picked the restaurant, made the reservation, ordered for me (which I love). We went to the W hotel, where we met often, for drinks after. We never talk about our relationship but this time the subject came up. He asked me what I wanted. I told him it was never an option to ask anything of him. He said he had changed. He wants to start over and prove himself to me. I sat there not knowing what to say. I was thinking about the boy the entire time. But what do I do? With all that I've been through with TA, I'm curious to see how he would be with me if we really gave it a try. But my feelings for the boy has grown so strong already. Do people really ever change? Is TA too late?

My little heart is twisting and turning.